What 'Freedom of Speech' Means

This is an important post, especially if you're in the US and you're coming across the excuse 'freedom of speech'! 

Freedom of speech is great, and really it's what this blog is. It's great that I can express my opinion without going to jail! It's amazing how I can disagree with important political figures, and yet I'm not getting a death sentence for it. I love how I can freely express what I think on here and not have people worried sick about this little girl running a blog with 'wrong opinions' and the government finding out! It's great. 

But people take advantage of this and it's so gross. 

Freedom of speech simply means you can state your opinion and you're not going to get in trouble for it.

It does not mean you can bully someone. 

Before you go and tell me I am incorrect, I did research and can confirm it is illegal in 49 states to bully someone (however the last state does have a strict policy about bullying), so if you are to come across a bully who says 'I have freedom of speech to bully you!', feel free to inform them they are wrong. It is against the law! You cannot be using 'freedom of speech' and be bullying them at the same time.

'Freedom of speech' isn't an actual argument for bullies and it drives me insane when they think it is! 

This should seriously be talked about in schools at the beginning of the year along with those assemblies about bullying. 

I know this post is short but there isn't much else to add on to this (unless you want a story from my life with a girl who used the whole freedom of speech thing and how it includes bullying thing on me in a debate), so I hope you enjoyed!

-wolfs4evea 

._. i'm depressed

I have some bad news.

More for me personally than for you/whoever is reading this.

Last weekend I was feeling really bad about something I've been feeling for years but I've only just recently decided to tell someone.

I first told my best friend last Saturday, who believed I should tell someone (professional), so I decided to speak with the school counselor. The following Monday I left a meeting request for the counselor, she didn't get back to me until Wednesday morning. 

I told her how I felt. 

I said that life felt pointless, and how I didn't want any part in it (I sorta talked about this in my last post).

And then she told me the sorta shocking bit. The school counselor said 'Depression is like the common cold of metal health.' and then she gave me a basic lesson about depression, concluding I was probably depressed.

I've been feeling this way since I was in the 2nd-ish grade. 

The school counselor encouraged me to tell my mother, as she and my mom are good friends (my mom helps out at the school often so everyone knows her).

So I did, that afternoon right after school- here's the thing though, she didn't care/understand.

This didn't bother me much other than the fact that I brought up that I'd probably had anxiety (I've noticed I have all of the signs and I tend to be anxious about literally everything.)

I was hoping she would get me some help or take me to a doctor or whatever, but she just said she probably had anxiety too. 

And then I went through this vicious cycle when I went back to thinking 'life is pointless, so what does it matter' which lead me to suicide. 

You might think that suicide would make me feel bad when I start to worry how my death would effect my family/friends/etc, but for years now I haven't felt love/compassion, sadness/pity/empathy/etc. 

Basically, if someone close to me died, I honestly wouldn't feel bad/sad.

._. I got side tracked I'm sorry guys. 

bye

~wolfs4evea

Eek

Hey everyone!

No post for 2 weeks so I figured today was the day to post~

I was considering just publishing one of my many drafts but decided against it.

Today I was rewatching some Youtube videos and I ended up at the Finebrother's channel and watched 'Teens React to Anaconda' and some of the teens started talking about how in this day and age, boys tend to think girls must always say yes and that a girl's body is theirs for the taking.

The first time I watched this video (back in September) this meant nothing to me, but in winter, when sharing a hotel room with my sister, her boyfriend called/Facetimed her and he continuously asked for nudes.(If you don't know what a 'nude' is it's basically exactly what it sounds like. It's a picture of you/your body naked.) Despite the fact my sister constantly declined, he kept asking for nudes. 

Back then I thought nothing of it, however now that I think about it, in this society women are viewed as less.

Did you know that in some places fathers will bury their daughters alive simply because of their gender? I personally think that this is rather funny because females have a XX (girl) genotype and males have XY (boy) genotype. Basically if you constantly have daughters, it's not the mother's fault, rather the father's. 

It also bothers me that boys/men are always told not to act feminine-do you know why? Because society subconsciously thinks that being a girl is degrading. 

This leads me to another topic that I've been considering posting about. Recently I haven't been feeling 'good'. As in I'm getting constant thoughts of how I really don't want to continue living and eventfully be an old woman and think about my memories. I don't want to even have to say 'I remember _____', and as much I want to tell someone, I can't because I'm too nervous I will just be told 'you're just on your period!'. Even though I've felt this way literally since I was 7-8 years old! Last time I checked puberty starts around 11-13! 

I plan on talking to the school counselor Monday. 

Sorry if I was too personal.

~wolfs