Eek

Hey everyone!

No post for 2 weeks so I figured today was the day to post~

I was considering just publishing one of my many drafts but decided against it.

Today I was rewatching some Youtube videos and I ended up at the Finebrother's channel and watched 'Teens React to Anaconda' and some of the teens started talking about how in this day and age, boys tend to think girls must always say yes and that a girl's body is theirs for the taking.

The first time I watched this video (back in September) this meant nothing to me, but in winter, when sharing a hotel room with my sister, her boyfriend called/Facetimed her and he continuously asked for nudes.(If you don't know what a 'nude' is it's basically exactly what it sounds like. It's a picture of you/your body naked.) Despite the fact my sister constantly declined, he kept asking for nudes. 

Back then I thought nothing of it, however now that I think about it, in this society women are viewed as less.

Did you know that in some places fathers will bury their daughters alive simply because of their gender? I personally think that this is rather funny because females have a XX (girl) genotype and males have XY (boy) genotype. Basically if you constantly have daughters, it's not the mother's fault, rather the father's. 

It also bothers me that boys/men are always told not to act feminine-do you know why? Because society subconsciously thinks that being a girl is degrading. 

This leads me to another topic that I've been considering posting about. Recently I haven't been feeling 'good'. As in I'm getting constant thoughts of how I really don't want to continue living and eventfully be an old woman and think about my memories. I don't want to even have to say 'I remember _____', and as much I want to tell someone, I can't because I'm too nervous I will just be told 'you're just on your period!'. Even though I've felt this way literally since I was 7-8 years old! Last time I checked puberty starts around 11-13! 

I plan on talking to the school counselor Monday. 

Sorry if I was too personal.

~wolfs