Hey everyone.
I know I said I would try to post at least once a week, but last week I was busy getting prepared for halloween and my birthday (believe it or not my birthday is on halloween), and this week I stupidly waited last minute to finish a project that was worth a last amount of points.
Today's post isn't going to be as cheerful as I wish it was.
So around two years ago, one of the first things I put on this blog was a post about my AJ clan. It was called SkyClan is EPIC!!.
If you haven't already noticed, today's post is titled 'SkyClan was Epic.'
Was.
It makes a big difference.
You see, around two years ago I remember heidei, or the former leader of SkyClan, one of my best friends on AJ told me (in summer), that she'd just realized she wasn't going to be on much that year.
That tore me apart, however it didn't turn out so.
We talked often. Sometimes roleplayed.
It was all very fun.
Until winter.
I visited a family member and stayed with them for a long time, I even started going to school there. They had no computer so I never went on AJ.
When I came back home and went on AJ I found many of my old close friends like heidei, pen45, or rileyri62 hadn't been on in a long time.
Eventfully, I quit, or took an unannounced break from AJ.
Sometimes I would log on and see heidei, riley, but mostly pen.
Everytime I met up with them it was like nothing had changed and it was heartwarming.
However summer rolled around and I barely went on AJ.
School started up again and I started playing a bit more.
Often checked how long my old clanmates hadn't been on. As the number grew, my heart broke more and more.
Then one day, the numbers dropped back to 1.
I watched and waited.
And then it was 30 again.
I know this isn't too interesting.
I know we've all had close buddies that eventfully quit, but this is really hard for me to talk about. I'm always so nervous they might think that it's stupid I'm still heartbroken about something so old, and that I was never really any of their 'best friends' on AJ.
I can still remember the day I had joined SkyClan.
I had been listening to Here's Hope by Owl City all day.
I was feeling good. I walked into Sarepia Forest and saw someone roleplaying as a lost kit and decided to roleplay with them.
Then heidei showed up and announced that she was hosting a clan in her den. The girl bolted.
Heidei and the kit were trying to get me to come along, but at the time I hadn't yet read warriors and thought clans were for cats who couldn't feed themselves.
So I refused for a long time, until I finally gave in.
I was named Darkheart, a queen. I was in love with my name.
There's more, but it's not too interesting.
Anywho, goodbye everyone!
~wolfs/silverstar