Hey jammers! Whatwhat here or nebula dust or…just call me Whatwhat :) This post is me clearing up some old things that happened in the past that I just wanted to verify. I hope I don't offend anyone because I probably won't o.o Anyways, let's start.
Language Warning
FIRST OFF:
Northen the Fake Boyfriend
Ok, this is a really stupid excuse. Well, it all started when wolfs got a BF, Falli. I was really pleased for her and I heard that Tammy had had a lot of boyfriends in the past on AJ. I had none. I felt really discouraged and wanted to be like them (note: Pup was in France right now). I felt a bit embarrassed that no one on AJ on IRL liked me for who I was. I felt really lonely and I just decided to make one up so I could feel less lonely and more part of them. Northen was created. Now, I always logged on him feeling guilty and made up really lame stories about him. Back then, I was happy. Ok, we head off here here it comes to Pali.
PALI
Pali is basically a 2 day overnight field trip. In Pali, you dissect squids, pole jump, and a bunch of activities that I forgot. Now, during Pali I was very stressed out. Why was I stressed out? First off, I was really protective of my Dad who I was very scared to leave. Second, Pup was going to leave to France soon. So when I get stressed out I act real shitty. I was mean to Pup almost everyday. And, she was mean back. The Golden Rule basically. I felt kind off alone there even though my friends were by my side. Why am I so lonely? Well 2 reasons. One, I am an only child and 2: Well… I am going to skip 2 because it's personal ^_^. Anyways, everything was going good I suppose until the Campfire came. Me, Wolfs, Bunbun and Pup were sitting in a row. Apperantly, Bunbun got caught off. Me and Pup sat up while Wolfs stayed sitting. Pup questioned the consoler why she broke up our friends but she replied with a crappy answer. Then wolfs told us that there's no use, sometimes we just can't sit next to our friends. So, the campfire/play continued and me,wolfs and pup were called up for a skit. I was really excited and quite happy. I like drama, A LOT. I was thinking everything was going pretty well. Until it ended. I searched for Tammy but I couldn't find her because it was very dark and very late. Soon, Wolfs, Pup and Me stumbled back to our camp where Bunbun was crying. Our teacher, Mr. C was standing there trying to comfort her. She pushed away Pup and me and went inside the cabin. Mr. C looked up to me and gave me a stern yet sad and undoubted look. It pierced though my heart. I will never forget that look. That night I tried to tok to Bunbun but she had taken Pup and soon Pup was against me too. I was very sad and tried not to cry myself to sleep. I had a horrible nightmare that night where I was falling off a cliff and the person who pushed me was Mr. C. He had the same look on his face. I was about ready to go home by now. So slowly and miraculously, Bunbun and us made up. Pup was still unsure about me. We went to the dining hall where they served Raviolli. Pup wanted to sit next to me but instead I got crammed between 2 other people. I could tell Pup was sad. I wen't to her and tried to talk to her but she shut me out. Then i starting getting mad and shut her out too. I was so sick inside that I wouldn't take it anymore. I overate the ravioli so I would get sick and go home, away from this drama. I was about ready to fall into my Dad's arms right now. Go home and see my dog. Of course, the next day I got sick. I went home and went on AJ. There was a new update. Diamonds.
DIAMONDS
My heart dropped. As if I didn't already need enough pressure, my favorite game starts to sell rates for free? I was addicted back then, too addicted. I started to cry now. My stomach lurched and I buried my face in a pillow. Then Bunbun and Wolfs came on. I exaggerated to Wolfs and that made her about done. She told me the good sides to diamonds and felt embarrassed for caring about rates so much. Once again, I was wrong and right. I didn't want to say the truth because I may seem cheesy so I "jk'd" it. Then she sent me a link. I clicked on it. It was a link to a post about me lying and all sorts of things. At this point I shut off the computer and ran to my Mother. She caressed me and told me that I can no longer be friends with them anymore. I was close to doing that. But i didn't want to. Our bond was strong and without them, I would be nothing. Nothing. Nothing at all. I was so sick at myself. And i was sick at the same time so.. yea o.o Then they told me that our teacher said about me, "Katherine's sicknesses are usually short" They thought that meant, "Katherine's sicknesses are short because she lies about them." My sicknesses are short because I have a good immune system like my dad o.o So, that was just something that really hurts me and that day I was really close to leaving you guys :(. I don't want that to happen again. You guys are my BFF's and I'm sorry Bunbun, for getting you lost in the Campfire situation, Wolfs for letting you have to figure out my BF problems and Pup, for treating you so shitty. I guess this is everything cleared up and it still gives me heart aches to this day.
Bye Jammers
-Whatwhat
