Clan Life, Blah-Blah-Blah & Friendship Problems

Hey-a everyone. So big update on clan stuff-I'm Silverstar now! What happened? Well, Cloudstar-the old leader-dived into the river at the Paradise Party because she was trying to save Fawnmist(imacutebunbunbunny), but Fawnmist was already gone. When she came back out she was weak and lost a life. She was left with her last life. Later on, she started to see things. Everyone was worried. Then, she fell out of tree(I know how silly it sounds)and she couldn't feel her back leg... Eventfully, she died. And I got my 9 lives, and was named Silverstar. (Cloudstar became Icepaw, a new apprentice) Leopardheart/Misttail(Whatwhat550) showed me this thing that lets you design your own cat's appearance. Doll Divine's Make a Cat thing. I created a few for my own character and other cats who play big RP parts in SkyClan.

Silverstar. (Me.)

Dogpelt, my old mate. (SkyBabe.)

Firepelt, Dogpelt's & Ivyleaf's daughter(I'll explain the story later). (Rileyri62.)

Blue, my adopted sister's daughter. She wounded her leg many times. (Riseabovehaters)

Real versions.
 Silverstar:

 Firepelt:

 Blue:

 Dogpelt:
Okay, who is Dogpelt(SkyBabe)? Well, he used to be a RiverClan cat but left to join SkyClan-he loved me too much.(This is all RP!!!) No one trusted him when he joined, but I already knew him from my days as a loner. Eventfully, after he explained himself he was welcomed into the Clan. It became official he and I were mates. Then, Ivyleaf(Rileyri62) said deputies couldn't have mates. We both knew this wasn't true, she just liked Dogpelt. Dogpelt became her mate, but he and I still met secretly, we only recently stopped... Well, Ivyleaf had two kits, blah-blah-blah. Let's move on? Firepelt(Rileyri62) first trained as a medic, but changed her mind after I said when I became leader she'd be deputy. Of course, that isn't true now. Leopardheart(whatwhat550) was her apprentice, but only trained her once. Leopardheart trained herself, she also reported that Firepelt said something like I'm much better training Dark Forest apprentices. Besides, StarClan didn't approve of her being deputy. Blue was hurt by Blackfoot when she was a kit. Blackfoot thought she was stupid, and clawed her terribly. Then, when she had became an apprentice, to save a warrior who would be better off dead(I know that sounds mean but when you hear the stories I have to tell about her, you'll understand), she fought a Dark Forest warrior and was scared. Slowly, she learned to to adapt. In the end, she became a great warrior and a fine mother... Whatwhat550, Imacutebunbunbunny and I have been doing cat comics because a guy at the school we all go to asked us to. But of course, we all got different ideas from this... And Whatwhat's and mine were about Clan-he doesn't know about that stuff.. Oh, well. Whatwhat550 luckily has a scanner so she can scan the comics onto the computer. I asked her to email them to me and that is currently what she is doing.(I've been working on this post for more than a day, I add to it whenever I feel like it. That's why it takes so long.)
(Another day...)
Whatwhat550 claims she has scanned the pictures just hasn't emailed me them, but whatever. Okay, so let's start off with some stuff happening in Clan life... When I logged on, I went to the Clan's camp, and there was a guy bullying my Clanmates. Here is a picture I took.

I will not say his user because I know that'd only be to his satisfaction. After got him to leave, I called Snowfeather/Nightfrost(spy56359) to my den(Clan/leader's den) to speak to her about something. She had changed her name to Snowfeather(it was originally Nightfrost) without my say so, she'd told me in the mail a little while back. As a leader, I didn't approve. Long story short, she got her way. She also called me something uncalled for, but little did I care.
Now for the second title of this post. About a week back Imacutebunbunbunny & Whatwhat550 made me feel like I didn't exist. They'd talk ahead of me, or be hide me, never caring enough to include me in their conversation. Well, after yesterday (April 20th) Whatwhat550 invited Imacutebunbunbunny, pup07418, and myself to go to this garden place that was really neat. Imacutebunbunbunny couldn't make it so only Pup & I went. When we came to Whatwhat's house, we started on this project that was due Friday but none of us started. Eventfully, we Skyped Imacutebunbunbunny on Whatwhat's Skype. She was quite, and I knew what was happening on the other end. She was crying. I started to IM(Instant Message) her. She wanted to talk about what was wrong on AJ. But I already had a hunch of why she was crying, I think we all did. So we went on our accounts.(Whatwhat opened two tabs and we took turns on the computer.) She ran from us, believe it or not, it was for drama. She can object but this is the truth. Back to our story, Imacutebunbunbunny went to a locked den, and then Whatwhat urged her to come her den. She listened. Why? Whatwhat mailed her a little while before, and she said I was too "firm." In Whatwhat's den, they talked... Whatwhat was doing things like "-eyes are filled with pain-" and "-looks at feet-" or whatever. To be honest, I don't think that makes someone more understanding, I think it makes them look stupid. Doing things like that don't really matter, and as far as the universe is concerned, it only wastes time. Then, Imacutebunbunbunny said Whatwhat550 understood more. This made me wanna die. That night on iMessage I'd told Whatwhat that it made me wanna "curl up and never come back," that meant die. I did understand. Well, anyway. Also that night, I typed something up and copied and pasted it on Skype. I sent it to Imacutebunbunbunny, it was about how I did understand. I deleted it, I felt like our friendship would end because of it.

This is it:

[Imacutebunbunbunny's name], I don't think you have the right to feel left out, and if you do feel left out, why in the world are you running away from us on AJ? Stop with the drama. Or maybe you do. But I'm hurt too. This will probably ended badly but this is how I feel. I'm sorry if this is harsh, or "firm." I don't care, this is how I feel, and I'm going to put it into words as rude, mean, evil or whatever as I like to. This past week, I've been feeling like I don't exist. Why? Oh, I dunno. Maybe because you and a certain someone have been, um, leaving me out when you talk and stuff. You walk ahead or behind me, it doesn't seem like you care enough to include me in your conversation. And now… We Skype you and you say you feel left out? I think: Oh, I know how that feels…
But no, you say you think [Whatwhat550's name] understands more, that hurt. It made me wanna curl up and never come back. 

So, whatever. You can say/think what you want to. But you made me feel like I was less that cr--. (Yes, I know. But if I said poo, it wouldn't be serious enough.)
BTW, [Pup] doesn't like me. Or at least, she didn't. [My other BFF] told me that in [A program Pup, my other BFF, & Whatwhat are in] she said to [Whatwhat] when she was acting like me "Stop it, you're acting like [My name]." 
Today we bonded, at least I think/hope we did. I feel like if you came, [Pup] and I would still not really close. I'm going to be truthful. You kinda bully her. No, you do bully her. It's not fair for her, we're suppose to be herfriends. Oh, well. I thought you should be told, if this is the end of our friendship. (I hope it's not.)

Oh, well. I am going to publish this because I want Pup & Imacutebunbunbunny to see it, along with the public. I want what they think, I want what you think. Pup & Imacutebunbunbunny probably will not see this, but if they do, I want them to know... 

I am your friend.

I want to be your friend.

Because we are friends, I am telling the truth like this. 

~See you in Jamaa~